Thursday, May 23, 2013

Snakes, Spiders, and Greenery

It's been brought to my attention that I have been remiss in my blogging, so here is an update of the happenings in the life of Shanti.

Let's see...I applied for a job at Home Depot where I hope to work part-time so I'm not spending all of my savings.  I have yet to hear from them but it was only a couple days ago.

Molly was gone for a week on her first school camping trip so I had the house to myself.  I went out last Wednesday night to see Kate's band Broken Lilacs play at a cute place called Odditorium.  They had neat sideshow stuff on display and I had my first "manmosa" which turns out to be beer and orange juice...I wasn't impressed, but I did drink about half of it before finding a willing lad to take it off my hands.  I met a very nice girl named Liz and we got on splendidly.  She's a seamstress and is very cool.  Of course, Kate did a wonderful job because she rocks like that.

Jacob came to stay with me this last Tuesday and we had a nice relaxing day where he made jewelry and I read and we listened to music.  Molly got home yesterday and we had a nice catch-up session.  Today we went to the botanical gardens and I took a few pics there...

Neat old cabin

Lovely ferns that look like they're made of wire


These guys were all over the place!

Blue sky and leaves

Sittin' pretty
 
 
 
I slipped and fell and hurt my foot so I haven't been to yoga this week, sadly.  But the plan is to go to a party tomorrow night with Kate so I'm very excited about that. I also found a snake today, sunning on my porch.  It was not a little snake.  I had to chase my kitty Hades away from it.  Here is this large visitor:
 
 



 
Thankfully he was gone when we got back, I was worried that I'd have to help him down and I'm not sure what kind of snake he is.  My brother Matt says he thinks it's a King Snake but I wasn't gonna take any chances.  I did touch his tail though...I love snakes.
 
 
In other news, I bought some citronella lamp oil for our Tiki Torches, which totally work by the way!
 


And I bought a piece of jewelry off of Jacob.  He's really very talented.




And really very silly.  He's wearing my cape and using my swords for this...
 


I suppose the biggest news is that I started online dating today!  I already met a nice fellow and we sent messages back and forth.  I have no idea what I'm doing in this area, but so far it is delightful!  I'll keep everyone posted on developments.

And again, I PROMISE that I'll write the conclusion of the Island story soon!  I know I'm a beast for making everyone wait so long!

XOXO

Shanti

Saturday, May 11, 2013

A Quest for Peaches Ends in Cornish Game Hens

It's Mother's Day tomorrow so I'd like to give a shout out to all the Mommys I know.  Keep up the good work, you are appreciated more than you know!

Yesterday was a gloriously wonderful day.  Let me tell you all about it!

We woke up and prepared to go to Biltmore but then heard from Kate that it would be 40 dollars to get in.  We decided not to do that.  Instead we picked Kate up and headed into downtown Asheville.  She took us to a delicious Sushi place and while we were eating Jacob went and bought an awesome blue ukulele and brought it back so we could admire it.  Then Kate asked, "Have y'all been to the Chocolate Café?"  To which we replied in the negative.  So she walked us to this heavenly two story café that sells chocolate, desserts, and coffee.  We each ordered a liquid truffle, which is a cup full of melted chocolate of your choice.  I got the salted maple, Kate got the lavender honey, and Molly got the spicy chocolate.  It was INCREDIBLE!  So rich and so gooey that you eat it with a spoon.  For all those who come to visit and would like to enjoy a little piece of heaven, we can go here. 

It was decided while eating our deliciousness that we should drive down to South Carolina and get some peaches.  I volunteered to drive, and we hopped in the car and headed south.

On the way Jacob was on the lookout for a music store in the hopes of getting some new strings for his teeny stringed instrument.  Kate had been telling us about this massive flea market called Smileys, and as we drove past it Jacob spotted a music store.  I did a quick u-turn and pulled into the gravel lot of this enormous place.  I had to use the restroom, so I followed the signs down a walkway and then down another walkway, passing open hobby stores, closed clothing stores, alive and well magic "the gathering" stores (yes, a whole store dedicated to this card game) and other such randomness.  I finally was led through a door into what appeared to be an abandoned arcade, with sheets thrown over old games and machines of luck.  I meandered through this ghost town until I found the restroom.  It was crazy weird, and I was expecting an army of carnie zombies to jump out from behind machines and display cases at any moment.  I wasn't really afraid, just fascinated.  On my way back through this haunted video arcade, I saw an older lady doing some sort of stocking or something, and told her how fascinating this place was.  She humphed and said "Ya get used to it." 
I returned to the car and was informed that Jacob's music store was "out to lunch, back in a half hour" and so we took off again. 

We drove further and further into the deep south, passing palatial homes and incredibly sweet little towns and a myriad of churches.  While winding along the country road I saw a sign for Hilltop Orchards.  "Should we go?" I asked.  "Sure," they replied, so I whipped to the right and up and up we climbed.  I'd like to thank my little old Honda yet again, as it championed up the steepest, windingest darn hill I've encountered in a long while.  We arrived at the Hilltop Orchards to find that they were not only closed, but that they sold apples.  So again the U-turn, and down we went.  My poor brakes.  But the views from the climb were lovely.

We passed into South Carolina and drove for a bit more before we passed a stand that definely said PEACHES.  One more U-turn got us there, and we parked and greeted the good ol' boys who all wore overalls and looked well fed who ran the place.  Sadly, no peaches were to be seen.  It will be another three weeks because of the cool spring we've had.  But they had the most beautiful strawberries! 

 
 
 
We scrounged together some dollars (cash only) and bought two pints.  On the way back home we discussed the fabulous Strawberry pie that Kate was going to bring for dessert and the Lynchburg lemonade that we were planning on enjoying.  We dropped Kate off, stopped at the grocery store, and headed home. 
 
This may not come as a shock to many, but I don't often cook.  I make an excellent sous chef but rarely take on the main course.  Last night, however, I made four honey glazed Cornish game hens, mashed potatoes, and a sauce for the hens.  Pretty much all by myself!  Molly peeled the ginger for me and Jacob read off the recipe measurements.  I even made orange zest!  I'm so fancy!  And proud of myself, if you can't tell. 
 
Yay me!!  Did I mention they were delicious?
 
 
Kate did indeed bring strawberry pie, and we gorged ourselves medieval style.  Then we hung out and listened to random nineties music and practiced the "twerk", which is a very interesting dance move.  If you don't know what this is, I'm not gonna explain it here.  You can look it up!  If you dare, that is.  It is very hard to do though.
 
All in all, it was one of the best, if not the best day I've had here so far.  Good food, good friends, roadtrip, what more could you ask for?  And it was warm!
 
I'm feeling very blessed to be a part of this place, experiencing new things and going on adventures.  Monday or Tuesday we might be headed to Deep Creek Tennessee to go swimming.  If the weather holds!  Cross your fingers!
 
 
Blessed be, all my people. 
 
Shanti Elena
 
P.S.  Here's a pretty picture to end with.  This is basically in my front yard.  It's so green now!
 
 


Saturday, May 4, 2013

Soaking Saturdays with Scissors and Suweet Drinks

Hello all!  It is a rainy, cold Saturday the 4th of May.  Molly and I started the day early (before nine!) and headed to breakfast at this total greasy spoon restaurant that is in the middle of a closed motel.  Cheap, good food, where gravy is a choice of side.  We then ventured to the Farmer's market Herb fest where we froze our tushies off but bought pineapple sage, lavender, mint, ghota kola, catnip, and angelica.  We followed this up with a trip to the local Candler library and then home.  We napped for a good long while and then got a message from Jacob saying, "We gonna hang tonight?"  So I told him that if he was willing to meet us at Starbucks then we'd pick him up.  The three of us went to Rite Aid and he bought some hair clippers and then we had dinner at Cruizin's Diner.  Pretty good place, and they had chocolate peanut butter ice cream!  It's in my freezer as I type this. 

I don't know who all knows this, but I've been searching for a liquor called Parfait d'Amore for a long time and have come to the conclusion that they do not have it in North Carolina.  So my friend Nate had the idea of using this new juice that's Cranberry Tangerine as a replacement.  I bought some today, and mixed up some delicious lavender martinis that are just about perfect.  For the second batch I muddled some fresh mint (see above) and they are wonderful my friends! 

The Ingredients
 
 
The martinis gave Jacob the liquid courage he needed to let Molly do this:
 
 

Before
 
During


After :)
 
 
Doesn't he look fabulous?  Totally different guy than who we first saw.  Reminds me of "My Life in Ruins" with Nia Vardalos.  And if you haven't seen that movie, you totally should because no matter what mood you are in when you begin it you will love life when it's over.  It's that good.
 
 
So we have showers, scissors, and sweet drinks covered.  I'm pleased!
 
Until we talk again,
 
Shanti


Monday, April 29, 2013

Wine and Writing

Has anyone tried the lovely Yellow Tail Moscato?  It's simply divine, very refreshing and bubbly.  Sweet too, because that's how I like it.  It was on sale at the local grocery store so I just had to get some.  Now I'm sitting at my little laptop creating a writing playlist and listening to music while working on my third book!  This is very exciting because I haven't worked on it in over a year. 

I also applied at a restaurant named Cheddars today and I'm going to visit there tomorrow.  Hoping this is what I need. 

The sun shone beautifully today, even though all weather pointed to rain.  And it seems that I've brought the northwest rain with me because boy does it pour here!  But I'm trying to look ahead to summer, and today gave a small taste of that.

Speaking of summer, I'm having my first visitor in July.  My father is coming out to see me, so I'll get to show him around the joint.  That will be fun, and I'll have to look for stuff for us to do.

Doing well besides, still losing weight so that is good.  Never eaten so healthy in my life!  But if feels good. 

I did research some other blogs, but this one seems to be the most user-friendly so I'm going to stick with it for now.  It is easy to become a google+ member, though!

Peace, Love, and Moscato

SEH

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Kava Kava Kava Chameleon

I'd like to premise this with Happy Earth Day/420!  Not that I partake of the latter so much, but it's the word of the day here in Asheville! 

In other news, I recently got my hair fixed from that weird tiered cut to a better one.  I actually have some bangs, albeit long ones...


In celebration of Earth Day we went to the little Kava bar downtown last night.  We being Molly, Kate and I.  Kava, for those who don't know, is a root from some islands somewhere that acts as a relaxant/mood enhancer.  It tasted like dirt and spices, very bitter, but they served it with pineapple to cut that.

 
 
 
I basically just shot each cup. 
 
 
Kate and Molly flashing the "K" for Kava!
 
The effect were pretty immediate, and the best way I can think to describe it is like being stoned and on muscle relaxers but without the fuzziness.  And it makes your tongue numb.  Fascinating stuff, fun experience!
 
Not much else going on.  Went mad grocery shopping today and my reliable little honda hit 200,000 miles.  Love me those hondas!  I promise that I'll post some more story soon, the reason for the delay is that I no longer get to just transcribe it...I have to write it!  But it will be done soon.
 
Love you all, miss you all! 
 
Shanti Elena

 
 

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Chapter Two Continued

Chapter Two Continued

I was late.  The boar had been heavy and the going had been slow.  I handed the carcass off to a passing group of men and rushed inside.  I poured water over my head to wash the sweat and blood away and quickly donned my armor.  By the time I'd driven to the perimeter Samuel, the civilian I relieved, was agitated.  I told him of the boar and his uneasiness fled, replaced by a grin.  He reported that there again had been no activity and then went on his way.

I began my shifts by walking my zone.  It was a half mile of the perimeter, a five foot space between the wall and the churned soil.  No one set foot on the soil.  Anyone who did usually didn't last long enough to get back to safe ground.  If these people remembered mines, I'd tell them that was what this was.  A mine field.  But nothing of metal and explosive lay beneath the dirt.  Just as deadly, though.

When I'd first arrived in this place, the churned soil had been in patches scattered across the island.  After the initial shock had passed at what came out of the soil I'd designed a strategy to use the traps to our benefit.  We'd only lost three civilians in the attempt, and what resulted had saved countless others.  It had also given us the first advantage in the war.

We called it the Ark War.  Well, they'd called it that, the enemy.  The name had stuck.  Because the Bible was no longer around except as a book in Frank's collection, the civilians didn't get the joke. It had lasted almost two years, though perhaps war wasn't the correct term. A series of skirmishes, pitched battles. They'd attack, we'd fight back. When we got the guns working the tide had turned. We'd attacked, and they'd died. Death was something that human beings, though they tried not to think on it, knew was coming. Inevitably. But the enemy-they'd lost that acceptance. So when it had come to them in greater numbers than they could stand, they'd called for the treaty. The enemy knew me as Noah, just as most of the civilians did.  Noah and his Ark, saving mankind from extinction.

I think in some ways it amused them.  I amused them.  Not the death, but the challenge it represented.  I knew they could crush us if they really wanted to.  We'd resist, some of them would perish, but their numbers were so much larger.  So it was that as long as I entertained them they'd let us be.  Almost five years of this might be getting old for them.  And if I was gone, would they proceed with the extermination?

Frank either didn't know or wouldn't discuss it with me.  The fact the he indulged me as much as he did continued to baffle me.  It was as if was waiting for me to do something.  Or waiting for something to be done to me.

After two hours or so of pacing, I leaned back against the wall and took a long pull from my canteen. The water was warm and tangy from the metal but it refreshed me nonetheless. Then I stared out over the sun-beaten earth and thought of how I'd lied to Frank.

The hurtle through time and space hadn't made me stronger, faster, or more agile. I'd always been that way. I'd learned over the years to hide it, to pretend that I was a normal guy. The only time it had come up, that anyone had asked questions, was the fire.

I heard a noise to my right. I squinted and saw through the shimmering heat the small figure of the guard speaking with someone else. He waved me toward him. I straightened, took another sweep from left to right with my eyes, and trotted over to the two figures.

"Noah, this guy wants to join us," he explained as I approached.

I perused the recruit. He was a tall, lanky civilian with matted blond hair that tangled to his shoulders. His clothes were loose on him, the white tunic and pants billowing in the breeze. He flashed me a grin of white teeth. Obviously his tribe was advanced enough to care about dental hygiene.

"You want to join, you have to train," I told the newcomer. "You speak to the leaders."

"Leaders busy," he grunted. "You who talk to, says them." He waved a hand toward HQ.

"They are wrong," I told him patiently. "You shouldn't be here. It's dangerous."

"I face danger," he said proudly, thumping his chest with a fist. "I protect."

"Yeah? How about you let us do our job and go..."

I was cut off by a low swear from the guard. I turned and saw and then I ran.


She'd somehow gotten through the gate.  No time to wonder how.  She was elderly,  carried a toddler in her arms.  The kid was pointing at the far off trees and laughing.  She'd made it to the edge of the revenant field before I could shout.  And she ignored the shout.  Kept going.  I pumped my legs faster, brought my Uzi forward.  She walked casually but ate up ground.  Five feet.  Ten feet.  The ground behind her had started to ripple, like water disturbed by stones.  I kept screaming and while she didn't seem to notice the kid did.  He noticed the ground, too.  His agitation finally got her attention.  She stopped, looked over her shoulder as the first white hands shot from the earth.  Then she panicked.

I reached them just as she took off.  Not back to safety, but farther into the churned dirt.  The first revenants had gotten halfway out of their holes, their dead eyes and white flesh streaked with dirt.  I sprayed them with bullets as I ran backward after the woman.  I didn't wait to see if they fell, but turned and ran hell-bent toward the fleeing grandmother.  I jumped and dodged the hands that pulled at the soil and finally got a hold of the woman.  I yanked her around and she fought me.  I grasped her shoulders and shook her.  Her eyes rolled and she clutched the child tighter.  He yelled and squirmed, then turned to me.

"Gram can't hear," he babbled at me.

I stared at him, into his blue eyes.  He pointed behind me.  I blinked and turned.  Shuffling toward us was a goddamned army of revenants.  I looked past the dead things and saw a group of my soldiers standing at the edge of the field.  I shouted at them to stay the fuck there.  I unstrapped my Uzi and tried to hand it to the grandmother.  She shook her head, pushing it away. 

"You have to!" I shouted at her.  The little boy was crying now, and the revenants were inching closer.  The grandmother set the child down.  She took the Uzi.  I quickly showed her how to pull the trigger and aim.  Then I turned to the revenants.

They'd formed a loose semicircle around us, blocking us from the safety of solid ground.  I advanced with my knives. 

"Tell her not to move," I barked at the child.  "And tell her not to aim that thing at me."

My first knife took an arm off, my second plunged into a throat.  The next minutes passed in a blurry of knife blades and sprays of viscous blood.  I heard the machine gun going off in random bursts and the moans of the dying revenants.  I tasted acrid, rotten blood.  The sun tried to blind me as I carried out my grim task.  Finally I spun, looking for more flesh to cut, more dead eyes to stare into.  It was quiet.  The soldiers stared at me, open-mouthed, from a great distance.  Somehow we'd moved across the field.  I swerved and looked to the grandmother.  Revenant bodies lay around her, bloated and white in the sun.  She held the gun loosely by her side, panting.  Of the little boy there was no sign.  And two feet away was the vampire side of the island.  Chills went down my spine as I watched a child vampire, appearing no older than ten, step from the foliage with a huge grin on his pale ageless face.  Clutched under one arm was the little boy.

"Do you dare to break treaty Noah?" he taunted.  "This one did."  He surveyed the path of dead revenants leading across the perimeter.  His smile faded a fraction.  Hundreds of white bodies.  Hundreds.

"He's only a child," I told him warily.  The grandmother was openly weeping, trying to shove my gun at me.  I ignored her, not daring to take my eyes off of the vampire.

"Then come and get this child," the child vampire told me evenly.  "Come and get him, Noah of the Ark."

I realized dimly that the grandmother was shaking my arm frantically, and I turned to her.  Before I could register even surprise, the world went black. 

End of Chapter Two.  Isn't this a fun story?  :)

Monday, April 15, 2013

Chapter Two

More of the Island Story!  Oh, and I applied for coffeshop jobs today, yay!

Chapter Two

The name of the island had been lost in the past, and I wasn't even sure what landmass it had been.  I wasn't even sure where it was, geographically speaking.  I'd surmised that it was somewhere off the coast of South America by the star constellations.  But in reality it could have been anywhere.  Global warming and time made for changes even Frank hadn't been able to explain.

Frank.  His real name was Francois.  The French that had been his birth language was still evident in his accent.  I'd stumbled across him a day after my arrival on the island.  He'd been what I'd found after I'd awoken in the village with no memory of how I'd gotten there.  I'd panicked, running past the shocked inhabitants and into the jungle.  I'd wandered for hours, thirst leading me to the shallow lagoon of fresh water.  Like an animal I'd plunged my entire head into the cool water, and after I'd drank my fill I'd lifted my head and seen him.  His looks were deceiving.  I'd judged him to be a man in his late sixties.  He wore a wool suit and his hair was close-cropped and gray.  He reminded me of a history professor.  It took me a moment to realize he wore no shoes and that his eyes were not normal.  The pupils-that's what had caught my attention.  Embedded in the dark gray irises they were slitted like a cat's.  Or a snake's.  He seemed to be studying me with intense curiosity, and from five feet away I studied him with wariness.  Finally I spoke.

"Aren't you hot in that suit?  It's got to be a hundred degrees out here."

Quickly, silently, he squatted down and placed his palms on his knees.

"Limber for an old guy," I'd observed.

He'd smiled.

"Uh, I think I'm lost.  Maybe I've been kidnapped.  I sure as hell don't know where I am.  Do you...speak English?"

"Not all who wander are lost," he quoted.

I remembered the quote but not who'd first coined it.  "Yeah, well, I didn't wander.  I really am lost."

"Yes.  You are definitely not from around here," he agreed.  "What is your name?"

"Graham."

"I am Francois."

"Nice to meet you.  You wouldn't happen to have a phone or something?  Or an outlet I could borrow?  Mine's dead."  I patted my cell phone where it was clipped to my belt.

He tilted his head to the side.  "Where do you come from Graham...?"

"Tanner.  I'm from San Francisco."

"San Francisco."  He rolled the syllables on his tongue as if in reverence.  Suddenly he stood.  "Come with me, out of the sun."

I squinted up into the sky.  We were in the sun.  Good thing I never burned.


Fate.  Was that really what had brought me here?  I sat on the bench outside my hut and sipped on my one-cup-per-day of coffee as I gazed around the village.  It was one of ten on our side of the island.  Each village had around three hundred people with the numbers growing each year.  Already in this year-if one went by the seasons it was late spring-we'd received three boatloads of mainlanders.  A total of eighty-two civilians.  Mostly illiterate, dirty, and speaking the garbled English that had first greeted me six years before.  When I'd arrived there had been two-thousand or so islanders.  I sipped the coffee again.  The smell more than the caffeine worked to wake me up.  I was heartily glad that there were others that now took on the tasks of educating and civilizing the newcomers.  I didn't want the duty.  I'd never wanted to be a teacher or leader.  In the real world I'd followed orders.  Point and shoot.  I'd also had bulletproof vests and night scopes and trained backup.  Decent weapons as well.  And more than one cup of coffee.

This village was cleverly named First Village.  Second Village was a half hour walk to the north.  Third and Fourth lay to the east, the rest to the south.  HQ was the farthest point inland, a mile from the perimeter.  We were all closer to the coast, with Third and Fourth being right on the beach.  They were the ones who took in the new arrivals and so had the most supplies and provisions.  First, my village, was the oldest.  The original.  And the leader of our village, Carlson, was walking toward me as I finished the last of my coffee.

"Noah," he greeted me with a smile as he shaded his eyes with his hand.  "How are you this day?"

"Tired, Carlson."  I stood and shook his offered hand.

"Did you sleep unwell?"  He followed me into my hut and I motioned him to sit on a stool.  His big body dwarfed it, his flowing white shirt and pants making his dark skin more pronounced.  Carlson always smelled like some sort of musk.  I knew it was from the incense he burned.  Mixed with his sweat it gave off a surprisingly pleasant odor.  I just smelled like sweat.

"I slept well."  I rinsed out the cup in my water barrel and laid it on a shelf.  I turned to Carlson.  "I heard you wanted to speak to me.  The answer will probably be no, though."

He stared at me for a moment, his dark eyes penetrating.  "Do you already know what it is I ask, then?"

"No.  But I'm assuming it's about leadership duties.  Or scouting missions.  Or taking civilians off of border patrol.  Any of those three?"

He leaned forward, the stool creaking with his shifting weight.  There was a reason that he was the leader.  He'd beaten every man but me for the title.  "You have already refused to be leader.  You have already refused to allow scouts to go to the mainland.  The third has not been discussed."

"But I knew it was coming.  Shebida, Louis, now you.  Just because we haven't had any incidences-"

"In nine months," he interrupted.

"-does not mean we should drop our guard.  They're planning something, waiting for us to make a mistake."

"How do you know this?"

"It's what I would do."

"And you think like them?"

I took a deep breath, let it out.  "I don't know how they think.  I do know they're smart.  Word of our freedom has spread.  Others may decide to fight back.  Having us free is a liability, a weakness, to them."

"You believe they will attack us?  When?"

"I don't know when.  But eventually they will wipe us out.  I honestly don't understand why they haven't yet."

"They do not like to die."

I almost laughed.  "No one likes to die, Carlson.  That's not a good enough reason.  Something is keeping them at bay."

"Well, the treaty should be the reason."

"And history has shown that treaties are broken as soon as someone gets tired of them."  I sat down on my bed.  "We need more soldiers, Carlson.  Not less."

"We also need more farmers, more hunters, more builders.  Noah, we need to, as you say, make a civilization.  We are trying, but we need more help."

"You get me more soldiers, I can shorten the shifts to free up more workers."

"We need leather."

I shook my head.  "Not if they stay behind the wall.  We make holes that guns and arrows can fit through.  I've been thinking about this for awhile.  We also build watchtowers that are tall enough to see across the perimeter.  We'll have advance warning-"

"Noah.  The people look to you as their savior, but many are beginning to doubt."

"Then have the doubters heal the newcomers.  They need fear, Carlson.  The war is over but the danger is always there."

Carlson stood.  "There is a tribal meeting in a week's time, Noah.  We will hear you then, but I warn you that you may not like what we decide.  I am sorry, but we must take care of each other.  The others, the enemy, have left us alone.  Perhaps if you argue well we can come to a..."  He faltered on the word. 

"Compromise," I said bitterly.

"Yes.  Compromise.  I will go now."

He shook my hand again and I let him walk away.


"You wanted them to think for themselves.  Why then are you angry?"

I continued pacing in front of Frank's cave, my rant fresh in the air between us.

"Because they're wrong.  Because they're playing into the enemy's hands."  I stopped and stared at my mentor.  My friend.  "Aren't they?"

Frank set aside the bow he'd been stringing and sighed.  "I have not been privy to the politics of my kind for many years, Graham Tanner."

I squatted before him.  "But you know how they think.  You can guess."

"I could, but it would only be assumption.  I chose isolation because I did not want to guess or assume."

"You don't want to get involved, you mean."

His strange gray eyes twinkled.  "No more than you do.  Yet those people are yours.  You created them, molded them into what they are today.  In doing so you feel responsible for them."

His unspoken words were evident.  "To save them I must lead them.  That's what you're saying."

"That is what you just said.  Not I."

"Frank, I get tired of your evasions."  I stood and stared out over the sun-dappled lagoon, to the waterfall that fell in a quiet rush farther up the hill.  I thought of home.  My wife and children.  Long dead in this place, this time.

"Whatever decision you make, you are not to blame for what occurs Graham."

The gentleness of his voice, the dropping of my last name, had me squeezing my eyes shut.  I didn't need gentleness.  I needed him to tell me what to do.  To take the burden off my shoulders.

"I have to go.  My shift starts soon."

"Come back tonight.  There is something I need to show you."

"Fine.  I'll see you at three."

I left the way I'd come and cut west toward the HQ building.  Halfway there I spotted a wild boar at the same time he saw me.

"Sorry buddy," I said as I aimed my gun.  "Wrong place, wrong time."

The pig and I had something in common.