Maybe the journey isn't so much about becoming anything.
Maybe it's about un-becoming everything that isn't really you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.
This struck quite a cord with me, as this journey of self discovery has taught me so much and left me with so many more questions.
What have I unbecome in the last year and a half?
I've unbecome a doormat.
I've unbecome someone who is scared of hiking and exercise.
I've unbecome someone who eats unhealthy food all the time.
I've unbecome someone who isn't willing to ask for what she wants.
There are more, but these are a few that I've come to realize. Right now we're in the middle of a thunderstorm, and it is hard to go swimming when that is happening. I'm getting my hair cut later, much overdue. I'm going on a tentative walk to "Skinny Dip Falls" off of the Parkway after the hair cut. I'm cooking breakfast for dinner and fixing my washing machine with a part I bought earlier this week. I'm keeping my options open for work. I'm not writing. But I did meet another writer the other night at Hot Springs who is in a women's writing group. This could be a very good thing. I've also joined a book club. AND I'm visiting home in a few weeks, which I'm totally stoked about.
Journeys are interesting things. I've come to this place where I think it's almost time for my next big one. The only question is, what will it be? So many options: Moving, book publishing, going home, getting a new job, going back to school, having children...Ha, maybe not the last quite yet but soon!
Peace, love, thunder, indecisions, and unbecoming
Shanti Elena
Shanti..I could not be more proud of you if you were my own daughter..Please don't spend too much time trying to figure out what is next..I have two quotes I want to share with you in that regard. They have guided me well..First is "Sometimes it's not about having all the answers. It's just about trusting yourself,leaning in the direction of what feels right & focusing on living the day in front of you the best you can." The second quote is, "My entire life can be described in one sentence. It didn't go as planned and that's okay" Personally I would say better than "okay." , but definitely not as planned.
ReplyDeleteYou woman have touched many lives and have lots of people cheering you on, enjoy that, not everyone can impact people as you have.
Wishing you the best always
Joanne, you are such an inspiration to me as well! I enjoy your comments and take your wisdom to heart. You're an amazing lady and I'm so blessed that we are friends!
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